It’s empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you’ve left behind
The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat
But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again
Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I’ll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind
So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears
But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again
So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s land
So make your siren’s call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say
Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be
And I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck
And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again
“The Cave” by Mumford and Sons
You should all know that I can find a song to express what I’m feeling.
I’m so frustrated. I’m so confused.
But I’m trying to understand.
I’m just being selfish, now. That’s really whats happening. I’m putting my selfish wants above the needs of someone else.
Space and time are relative. Space can mean so many things, and time is viscous, moving fast or slow depending on perception.
I think in terms of black or white. Things either are or are not. There is no grey area. I’m a concrete thinker, so abstract concepts such as time and space are hard for me to grasp.
If you need to create space between two objects, there should be nothing between them. If there is something between the two objects, it negates the need for space.
I don’t know if that makes any sense to you, but it does to me.
I just need to get used to the grey area, I guess. It doesn’t make sense to me at all.
This, to me, is like saying, “Your dog is dead, but you can still keep it.”
It just does not make sense.
I don’t like ‘maybe’, ‘sort of’, ‘eventually’, ‘almost’.
They do not give you clear, concise answers. They are vague and troublesome words.
But trying to make sense of emotions is like trying to catch raindrops in between your fingers. It’s impossible.
I don’t even know where I’m going with this. I can see my fingers moving, striking the keys on my laptop, but I do not feel them. It’s like I’m looking at the screen through someone else’s eyes.
I’ve run these thoughts through my head so many times they are starting to mean nothing, much like if you say a word repeatedly it loses its meaning.
Like llama. If you say it 2390823409 823 times in a row, it ceases to be an animal and becomes a jumble of vowels and consonants with no concrete meaning.
My brain is turning to mush. My thoughts have been running in circles to the point where they have become a jumble of emotions and failed logic.
I’m just so confused.
I don’t know what to think anymore.
