It is strange to me how the word human can be used in so many different ways, to describe so many different things.
“We’re only human.”
Only? As if there is anything better to be? As if this is a bad thing?
Humans make mistakes, have emotions, senses of humor, regrets, hopes, dreams, all of that good stuff.
So, why is it that we use the word human to explain away faults?
This is a concept that is frustrating me, and I feel like if I give it more time to float around in my head I will get an answer.
Humans have relationships. Romantic, friendly, family, work. Our entire existence is based off of interaction with other humans. When you get down to it, all anyone really wants is acceptance and love.
I believe this is why I get so very frustrated with relationships that change and grow negatively.
I want my best friend to be my best friend forever, but I know it’s very silly to think that we will always be close. Matter of fact, I feel like we’re beginning to grow apart. I don’t know how it started, or why. All I know is that I feel like I don’t even know her any more. I so desperately want to reach out to her and ask her what changed.
Was it me? Her?
I miss her terribly. I see her every day, but it feels like we’re barely friends at all anymore. I know people grow up. I know these things. It just doesn’t make it any easier to deal with.
I honestly feel like I’m going through a shitty break up. It’s terrible.
I think she hates me, actually.
But, onward.
